Over the last week I have tried to stay busy working on church stuff, subbing at a few local schools, doing a few things around the house, etc...For about 24 hours having the house to myself was nice.
However, the silence of it all begins to creep in. Avery not being here is obvious, she is so filled with energy. Each day she fills our home with joy in so many ways. Court, I miss her. I miss our quiet conversation. I miss her condescending nature toward my immature sense of humor. I even vacuumed today, 2 days before their return because I miss her complaining about Timber's hair being around our house. Most of all I miss her laugh, I love watching a TV show or movie with her knowing something is going to make her laugh.
I am not sure exactly when it happened, but I am less full when Court and Avery aren't around. We are each designed differently, but I could never work a job that kept me away from Court or Avery for any length of time. I can only imagine those who do such things and how difficult it is, but other than absolute necessity I could never work such a job.
I still have roughly 48 hours to go before they return. I spend most moments of the day thinking about them. I can't wait to see them at the airport.
Being a husband and a dad isn't easy. I often wonder if I am very good at either. I do believe I work hard at it, but I fear I do not work smart. It is hard work, without a doubt it is a labor of love. One thing rings true, anything worth anything is worth working for...
The single life, I'll be glad when I am not single anymore.
